ALL POETRY
Emo on the Inside
I may wear black
I may wear chains
I may look emo on the outside
But my wrists unscathed may tell no lies.
No blade or nail may slice my skin,
But painful memories are enough of a sin.
The time we spent, the shape of your face,
Just as sharp and just as crazed.
My emotions scar my insides,
As the pain leaks from my eyes.
I stand tall with nothing to stand for.
I am just a scratched CD.
I can’t play the right way or say what I really mean.
Who it's For
I don’t do it for you
I don’t do it for my friends
I don’t do it for my enemies
But it is it is still another mistake that my wrist mist defend
Too painful but it will never hurt enough again
My life was falling on top of me
I was losing everything
Still the weight I carried was nothing in comparison to your words
Not spoken but still heard.
Not shown but still seen.
Nothing taken in but tension still breathed.
Your Words
Standing in shock
Picked like a lock
You opned me up nad away you took me
Whisked me away so that we could be
Your icy words are just too much
Stilll want you back but I'm not that tough
I've had enough bad over the years
But still I"m ungrateful for the tears
I ised to roll the dice and take a chance
And into the night with the devil I'd dance
I try to remove the daggers but they became a part of me
Your words became a part of me
Once gone, the pain spilled from within
My pain for you was just another sin
Each icy drop that falls from my eyes
will forever remind me of all your lies
Your words stab through me leaving a path of destruction
in an innocent person looking for someone to pull her back as the
evil demons from hell whisk me away to the land of the wrong where
love lingered on in search of self inflicting pain.
Cold Reality
As I look into the mirror of cold reality,
My dreams are frozen and ripped right out of me.
I must hear though I don’t want to,
Because all is truth that comes from you.
Reality is the salt in an open wound,
Leftovers from my previous mood.
I lingered past what I want to feel,
Still can’t tell what pain is real.
As random spikes of hope creep up,
Cold reality is just too much.
All I feel seems magnified,
My feelings spilling from the inside.
Da, da, da,
Nobody knows
Nobody cares
Nobody sees
Nobody stares
Cut, cut, cut
Bleed and bleed until it’s shut.
Slash and slash
listen to the crimson splash
Bang and bang
the door locks with a clang
Slide and slide
the scarlet has finally dried
Sleep and sleep
Sink in the puddle deep
Die and die
finally end the endless lie
More
In this inhumane society
I’m sure of my sobriety
Yet attracted to you am I
So bad too bad I can’t die
This hound of hell has kept me here
I cry as this pain will forever sear.
I want what I can’t get,
I just want to forget.
I want you more than I should,
More than you know,
More than anything.
STORY OF MY LIFE: One of many sad realizations
Ok well, today in math class, my friend and i were discussing why she went around hugging everyone in the hallways. She said it was because it was the nice thing to do. I said it was disgusting. She said it was because i was mean. i was like i am not mean and if you call me mean again ill rip your throat out and feed it to the hungry werewolves camped outside your house. Just kidding really. she was all "ya sure" very jokingly. and i realized that i was really mean.
At lunch, i was sitting with my older "brothers" and Taylor was like you have 3 out of the 5 signs of a demon and i asked what they were and he said, you have loud voice, intimidation, super strength, and the other two are heightned psychic abilities and i forgot the other one. Then i was like i have psychic abilities. and he was all no way. I said, hey you know that girl who is going to walk past us in about 10 minutes, she is going to trip and fall on brenden's board. well, i was right. creepy. i am now a demon.
Ok well, my ex boyfrined put a letter in my locker and it was all hey are we still buddy buddy, do u like so and so?(to find out who so and so really is go to the help me out here page and real the newest post. please comment!!) Ok well i was going to write him back and say bad words and answer all of his questions really grrrrr. Sam told me to be nice. i was like you were the one who told me to open my eyes about him because he was a butt to you and everyone and now you are teling me to be nice to him and ten minutes ago you told me you would like him to die in hell! She said i should still be nice to him. i am reall ymean.....and PROUD INTIMIDATION RULES!!!!